i feel like people dont understand me and probably never will because my emotions are so unstable and two-sided and complex its hard to even keep up and im constantly changing identities to the point where i feel guilty because everyone around me cant keep up but ill jus thug it out i guess

hii you're a really cool person. just wanted to say that since you're genuinely helping out, you're amazing! keep it up.

replying to what you said, if I am a narcissist, it's probably from my dad. Getting that out of the way, yes, I myself feel like i've gotten worse. Though me and my partner have talked about the situation and I'll be honest, it's gotten better for me and him! , About alcoholism, I'm currently talking to my mom about it and shes helping me get better. Me making Simon uncomfortable, me and him have been talking and now we're friends. I'm not sure if there is anything else I need to fix, but this is just me replying to what you said on my vent. Thank you.

I don't feel good right now I'm tired of people I'm so fucking tired

I am 2 steps ahead (I am 2 steps away from McDonald's)

Today my older sister had a conflict with mother. So we have 2 birds and whenever we try to let them out of their cage, my older sister comes to the room where the birds are and starts saying like “these birds are making too much noise can u just make them sleep or something?!” The worst part is that she is shouting, and mother says “they are birds they also have a life.” But this time idk why my sister was really mad bc of it (more than usual) and she started shouting at my sister (older). And mother got mad bc she always make a big deal out of it, and then mother came to her room and tried to talk to her but she wouldn’t listen she said “ Every time I say a little thing u have to make it big!! U just want me to have a bad day and not be happy!! This is never my fault but yours!!” Mother try’s to talk calm with her but she won’t listen, mother said “If the birds are making noise is not ur problem they also have right to make noise. It was not a big deal u don’t have to get that mad.” And then my big sister said “U too u don’t HAVE to make it a that BIG DEAL!” And father that mother went to her job bc she has night time job and she say to us (me and my sister) “u guys can stay in ur rooms and don’t talk to her she is in having it tonight” and idk but this isn’t the first time and every time that happens I feel like my organs is water and my heart is beating faster and faster.

i feel like my friends dont like me, i ask them to stop doing something and they dismiss me, i try to hang out with them they tell me to stop being clingy. i dont think they like me

im tired . I want to actually feel loved , but I dont . I'm getting more and more lonely each day but I don't want to do anything about it . I just want to bury myself and say goodbye .

Tw for those who wanna read this ig, im judt venting oit all of my thoights here. Dont read if uncomfy bc this is probably long af I feel so confused with myself daily. I feel hatred, love, disguise, anger, etc on myself almost everyday for reasons even i cant explain or remember sometimes: hypersexuality, identity + religion crisis, emotions and mental fights. Im suspected to be autistic, but my family all think im just fucking crazy: im 14, i want to be me and free but no im forved to be 'normal' judt to stay in this family. I want to run away, kill myself or even judt place myself in the psych ward but they all would worry and be overdramatic. Oh i wished i could just be dead and live in my daydreams, theyre so fun and adventurous and they make me feel so free whenever i think about them during the late nights innthe darkness of my room. I want to hurt myself, really i do but my body is so scared of the pain. mentally im tired and ready to just die and face heaven and hell (if they exist even) but physically my body is just stuxk on fear of feeling pain despite me being someone who craves adrenaline and blood. Blood is so divone, the colour, the way it flows, splattered. I just want to be free. The world is dying, doesn't mean that I or anyone else should die with it. We're supposed to be free and wild. Not scared and trapped. (im seeing professionals but theyre fuxking useless) Hugs to everyone here, not caring if a venter, reader, regular commenter; we all deserve hugs

I loveemy boyfriend so muchh byt he just wont let me help him ( he's likeee... i love him to bits but he has some issues i cant help. I just wish he was able to the get the help he needed and qhen i cant be of use i feel like i did somethjng sosososo bad by not beingable to help him :/ his bad feelings often make me spiral a bit and when he wont tell me what's wrong (sometimes) it really sets off my paranoia (i have cluster a personality disorder) and fucks w my hyperempathy. Its so hard to detatch myself from his emotions when i cant "fix what's wrong"

Idk I feel a bit empty. School is a pain, homework is worse but I try. Only thins that make me happy is my fam and friend. I don’t get private time bc my older sister likes to go through my messages and pictures on my phone. It’s really uncomfortable, it feels like I always have to hide what I like and how I am. But at the end of the day I always try to make other ppl happy, that’s how I feel good. I try to clean the house or do more work then i have to do, to make the ppl that matter for me happy.

to correct myself , not Departmentalization . depersonalization .

I'm tired . I don't understand why I feel like this , people just keep me around to pity me , and tell me "oh same" or "it's okay sweetie ." like no it's not stop saying that . someone can go to the fucking hospital while I'll sit at home , but I'll wait for my queue to show my "emotions" . and even if I'm feeling like shit all they're going to do is go back to ranting / venting to me . its not fair all I want to do is slam my head against a brick wall , and will they understand ? no , no one understands why I am the way I am . please understand me , I'm sorry for what I did just please I know I'm sorry . I don't think I'll ever get better . I constantly think my boyfriend doesn't love me . even though that's "all he yaps about" according to someone else . I'm scared of him making new friends because I'm scared- what if he forgets about me . . . its constantly getting worse and I don't know why . I feel like he just doesn't love me anymore even though I have no way of proving that , heh . but I can't stop thinking he doesn't love me anymore , even though he sure acts like he does . plus my alcoholism is getting so much worse and I don't know what to do . I'm always fucking dissociating at this point and I hate it . I hate having fucking departmentalization disorder or whatever the fuck its called . I just want to be normal , and alone . but then again if I'm fucking alone I'll feel lonely . byt that's how I always have been , I just want to be left alone but I can't stop going back to my husband . please I need help but idk what to do / who to text .

hi! it's me again. saw the skin and thought i'd pop in to give an update and extend my gratitude. thanks for running this little book and giving a bunch of people (myself included) a place to go; a shoulder to lean in. don't forget to take care of yourself though! as for me i'm doing better! getting better with stopping the comparing

Hi again uhm, i did you advice like writing notes that looks like gibberish. Anyway uhm. I feel lonely. Like from the feeling and not physically, i mean i do have friends... and people to talk to but i dont know. I kinda feel numb or empty after talking to them And i feel very envious or want to cry when i see other people having friends or people having fun each other without me. I really want that to change.