vent book - Atabook

#78

gr13f3r November 16, 2024 at 6:23:30 PM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: void in blue - glare

What's your coping mechanism?: biting or gnawing on nearby things (nails, rubber things, blankets, pencils, pillows)

Who are your trusted people?: my boyfriend and our partners

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: if you wanna

i feel like people dont understand me and probably never will because my emotions are so unstable and two-sided and complex its hard to even keep up and im constantly changing identities to the point where i feel guilty because everyone around me cant keep up but ill jus thug it out i guess

Replied on: November 16, 2024 at 8:06:50 PM

All emotions are two-sided and complex, figuring out who you are and want to be is even harder, but those around you who care for you will do their best to understand and accommodate to you no matter what. The best you can do to help them is communicate concisely and often! You got this!

#77

dakota November 16, 2024 at 11:28:24 AM

What's your coping mechanism?: usually ripping and breaking any unimportant stuff.

Who are your trusted people?: siblings, friends.

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: idm

hii you're a really cool person. just wanted to say that since you're genuinely helping out, you're amazing! keep it up.

Replied on: November 16, 2024 at 5:38:10 PM

Thank you, that means a lot. Your coping mechanism is awesome by the way! Very good outlet for intense emotions, hah!

#76

riley ♡ November 15, 2024 at 10:54:04 PM

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: if ya want

replying to what you said, if I am a narcissist, it's probably from my dad. Getting that out of the way, yes, I myself feel like i've gotten worse. Though me and my partner have talked about the situation and I'll be honest, it's gotten better for me and him! , About alcoholism, I'm currently talking to my mom about it and shes helping me get better. Me making Simon uncomfortable, me and him have been talking and now we're friends. I'm not sure if there is anything else I need to fix, but this is just me replying to what you said on my vent. Thank you.

Replied on: November 16, 2024 at 2:59:45 AM

I'm glad you're working on yourself, and I'm happy to hear that you've taken some of my advice. I'm also glad that Simon forgave you, even if it was probably only because of the situation he himself is dealing with because he also forgave me when he really shouldn't have. You're doing good regardless. Keep it up.

#75

Anonymous November 15, 2024 at 10:35:14 PM

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I don't feel good right now I'm tired of people I'm so fucking tired

Replied on: November 16, 2024 at 2:58:01 AM

Me too. But it'll pass. People will always be shitty, but there are good ones out there. You'll find them eventually if you keep your head up and the vibes positive, or at least as positive as you can manage. You got this!

#74

val November 15, 2024 at 9:22:36 PM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: Daydreaming by rebzy

What's your coping mechanism?: drawing

Who are your trusted people?: Myself and my besties obvs

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: Maybe

I am 2 steps ahead (I am 2 steps away from McDonald's)

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 9:28:03 PM

I can't tell if this is a threat or not 💀 Get that food ig

#73

Paloma November 15, 2024 at 9:02:46 PM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: Treehouse by Alex G

Who are your trusted people?: Friends mother and father

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: Ye

Today my older sister had a conflict with mother. So we have 2 birds and whenever we try to let them out of their cage, my older sister comes to the room where the birds are and starts saying like “these birds are making too much noise can u just make them sleep or something?!” The worst part is that she is shouting, and mother says “they are birds they also have a life.” But this time idk why my sister was really mad bc of it (more than usual) and she started shouting at my sister (older). And mother got mad bc she always make a big deal out of it, and then mother came to her room and tried to talk to her but she wouldn’t listen she said “ Every time I say a little thing u have to make it big!! U just want me to have a bad day and not be happy!! This is never my fault but yours!!” Mother try’s to talk calm with her but she won’t listen, mother said “If the birds are making noise is not ur problem they also have right to make noise. It was not a big deal u don’t have to get that mad.” And then my big sister said “U too u don’t HAVE to make it a that BIG DEAL!” And father that mother went to her job bc she has night time job and she say to us (me and my sister) “u guys can stay in ur rooms and don’t talk to her she is in having it tonight” and idk but this isn’t the first time and every time that happens I feel like my organs is water and my heart is beating faster and faster.

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 9:24:58 PM

Your parents need to deal with her, because that's no way for anyone to act let alone someone who I'm assuming is in their mid to late teen years. She is not your problem, so try not to dwell on it too much, chances are arguing with her will only bring more problems, so just do your best to ignore it for now. You'll be fine, just keep yourself out of trouble and let your parents do their jobs.

#72

Anonymous November 15, 2024 at 6:59:44 PM

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i feel like my friends dont like me, i ask them to stop doing something and they dismiss me, i try to hang out with them they tell me to stop being clingy. i dont think they like me

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 7:12:31 PM

I agree with you, especially if they're ignoring your boundaries and brushing you off. You should try to find new friends who care about your boundaries and don't accuse you of being clingy by just trying to be a friend. Good luck.

#71

Anonymous November 15, 2024 at 4:15:11 PM

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im tired . I want to actually feel loved , but I dont . I'm getting more and more lonely each day but I don't want to do anything about it . I just want to bury myself and say goodbye .

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 6:10:23 PM

The only way to feel relief from the loneliness is to reach out and do something to ease it. Make new friends, find a sense of community, etc. Or you can try to drown it out with new interests, hobbies, etc. Either way, relief starts with you taking initiative. Lest you rot in your own self-pity and wallow in the grief and depression of your own mental state. Take a chance. The worst that can happen is your attempts fail and you don't feel any more or less lonely at the end of the day. But there's always the next day.

#70

😴 November 15, 2024 at 1:36:52 PM

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: You don't have to, no worries; just letting my emotions out

Tw for those who wanna read this ig, im judt venting oit all of my thoights here. Dont read if uncomfy bc this is probably long af I feel so confused with myself daily. I feel hatred, love, disguise, anger, etc on myself almost everyday for reasons even i cant explain or remember sometimes: hypersexuality, identity + religion crisis, emotions and mental fights. Im suspected to be autistic, but my family all think im just fucking crazy: im 14, i want to be me and free but no im forved to be 'normal' judt to stay in this family. I want to run away, kill myself or even judt place myself in the psych ward but they all would worry and be overdramatic. Oh i wished i could just be dead and live in my daydreams, theyre so fun and adventurous and they make me feel so free whenever i think about them during the late nights innthe darkness of my room. I want to hurt myself, really i do but my body is so scared of the pain. mentally im tired and ready to just die and face heaven and hell (if they exist even) but physically my body is just stuxk on fear of feeling pain despite me being someone who craves adrenaline and blood. Blood is so divone, the colour, the way it flows, splattered. I just want to be free. The world is dying, doesn't mean that I or anyone else should die with it. We're supposed to be free and wild. Not scared and trapped. (im seeing professionals but theyre fuxking useless) Hugs to everyone here, not caring if a venter, reader, regular commenter; we all deserve hugs

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 6:15:18 PM

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#69

Anon November 15, 2024 at 12:32:35 PM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: "Why do you let me stay here?" By She & Him

What's your coping mechanism?: Hhhhggghh going nonverbal

Who are your trusted people?: My partner

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: Notttt rlly.... but if you have advice it'd be nice

I loveemy boyfriend so muchh byt he just wont let me help him ( he's likeee... i love him to bits but he has some issues i cant help. I just wish he was able to the get the help he needed and qhen i cant be of use i feel like i did somethjng sosososo bad by not beingable to help him :/ his bad feelings often make me spiral a bit and when he wont tell me what's wrong (sometimes) it really sets off my paranoia (i have cluster a personality disorder) and fucks w my hyperempathy. Its so hard to detatch myself from his emotions when i cant "fix what's wrong"

#68

Paloma November 15, 2024 at 12:00:33 PM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: Treehouse by Alex G

Who are your trusted people?: My best friend, mother and father

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: Yah

Idk I feel a bit empty. School is a pain, homework is worse but I try. Only thins that make me happy is my fam and friend. I don’t get private time bc my older sister likes to go through my messages and pictures on my phone. It’s really uncomfortable, it feels like I always have to hide what I like and how I am. But at the end of the day I always try to make other ppl happy, that’s how I feel good. I try to clean the house or do more work then i have to do, to make the ppl that matter for me happy.

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 5:57:52 PM

You should change your passwords so your sister cant get into your device, because she really has no business going through it in the first place. As for your people pleasing tendencies, there's nothing wrong with them, however it would be in your best interest not to let them rule your life. Find time for yourself, try out new hobbies or interests and make time day to day to indulge in them. It would be a healthier way to express yourself other than helping others in a way that is potentially overworking you. On the school note, there's not much you can do about it. School sucks and homework is what it is, but so long as you're trying that's a good start and all that really matters. Try new studying habits, new learning techniques, ask more questions in class or one on one with the teacher, write them emails to get more help on work that you're struggling with, or find a friend or classmate who knows the work better than you do, and have them teach it to you. I oftentimes find that your peers can teach you the work better than the teacher can if they know what they're doing. Good luck, and don't forget to be yourself regardless of what people think.

#67

riley ♡ November 15, 2024 at 11:55:57 AM

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: just a correction , so you can . nf

to correct myself , not Departmentalization . depersonalization .

#66

riley ♡ November 15, 2024 at 11:54:20 AM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: don't have one .

What's your coping mechanism?: sleeping / talking to someone .

Who are your trusted people?: no one , just a bit of my bf .

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: please , once you can .

I'm tired . I don't understand why I feel like this , people just keep me around to pity me , and tell me "oh same" or "it's okay sweetie ." like no it's not stop saying that . someone can go to the fucking hospital while I'll sit at home , but I'll wait for my queue to show my "emotions" . and even if I'm feeling like shit all they're going to do is go back to ranting / venting to me . its not fair all I want to do is slam my head against a brick wall , and will they understand ? no , no one understands why I am the way I am . please understand me , I'm sorry for what I did just please I know I'm sorry . I don't think I'll ever get better . I constantly think my boyfriend doesn't love me . even though that's "all he yaps about" according to someone else . I'm scared of him making new friends because I'm scared- what if he forgets about me . . . its constantly getting worse and I don't know why . I feel like he just doesn't love me anymore even though I have no way of proving that , heh . but I can't stop thinking he doesn't love me anymore , even though he sure acts like he does . plus my alcoholism is getting so much worse and I don't know what to do . I'm always fucking dissociating at this point and I hate it . I hate having fucking departmentalization disorder or whatever the fuck its called . I just want to be normal , and alone . but then again if I'm fucking alone I'll feel lonely . byt that's how I always have been , I just want to be left alone but I can't stop going back to my husband . please I need help but idk what to do / who to text .

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 5:52:23 PM

Assuming you're the same Riley (koto) I used to linger around, I understand why people treat you the way that they do, which isn't to say that they're correct in their behavior, but I understand their perspective. When someone repeatedly put themselves back into a neglectful situation (you with your boyfriend) it makes it really hard to form a connection with that person, because you just know that they're going to prioritize that neglectful situation over the friendship you're trying to build with them. They'll always put that person over you and over their other friends. On another note, you do the same thing with venting to people or over people or trying to competitively place your own positive emotions over those of others. I witnessed this first hand in my server and so did my now ex boyfriend, and several other server members, who were all very put off by you. I am of the firm standing opinion that you are a narcissist who can't stand the concept of not being the most important person in the room, and the reason you refuse to let go of your current relationships and try to find better ones is because you know the people you're currently around either wont leave or cant leave you because of the kind of bonds you've created with them. You need to stop drinking because you're 15 and you could kill yourself or get your parents put in jail because of it. Plus it's not gonna help your mental health. I've told you before but I doubt you listened because you never did despite how much I tried to help you; Alcohol is a depressant. It makes you feel like shit so that you want to drink more for that temporary high. You really should have listened to me when I was right there willing to help you as a father figure, because everything I gave you instruction on how to fix now seems to be much worse than when we last spoke. Good luck, kid.

#65

anon November 15, 2024 at 10:28:43 AM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: i talk to the wind — king crimson

What's your coping mechanism?: i confide in music

Who are your trusted people?: —

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: don't have to

hi! it's me again. saw the skin and thought i'd pop in to give an update and extend my gratitude. thanks for running this little book and giving a bunch of people (myself included) a place to go; a shoulder to lean in. don't forget to take care of yourself though! as for me i'm doing better! getting better with stopping the comparing

Replied on: November 15, 2024 at 5:37:02 PM

I'm glad to have helped, and whilst I don't do this for the validation and gratitude it is appreciated. I hope things continue to go in this positive direction for you.

#64

aspfish November 13, 2024 at 1:25:33 PM

What's your favorite song for when you're upset?: epic: the musical

What's your coping mechanism?: play mlbb

Who are your trusted people?: none really

Would you like me to reply to your entry?: yah

Hi again uhm, i did you advice like writing notes that looks like gibberish. Anyway uhm. I feel lonely. Like from the feeling and not physically, i mean i do have friends... and people to talk to but i dont know. I kinda feel numb or empty after talking to them And i feel very envious or want to cry when i see other people having friends or people having fun each other without me. I really want that to change. :cry:

Replied on: November 14, 2024 at 6:59:43 PM

The only real way to get over that feeling of jealousy is to accept the reality that not everyone is going to want to hangout with you all the time, and that people will have other friends, your friends will have friends outside of you. Now, jealousy is a stigmatized emotion, despite it being completely natural to experience. The difference between natural jealousy and problematic jealousy is whether or not you let it control your life and the way you see and interact with others. Be bigger than your emotions. If all else fails, find new communities to join so you can meet more people.