It's never too late to change and be the person you want to be. Just take your time to assess the issues and find a constructive way to fix them. People will only fear you if you give them a reason to.

You're allowed to feel like that, so long as you don't act on those feelings. You can tell him you hate him and let it be known, but you cannot hurt people. So do whatever you want, say whatever you want, just so long as you don't hurt people.

You can always tell your friends that you'll be back later, because the cool thing about the internet is that everything ever will still be there later. The real world passes by the way you think that the internet will. You'll miss out on half your life without realizing it because you're buried in a screen worried about a world that isn't going anywhere. You should try to spend time outside more, without a device, or if you do bring your phone because safety reasons, try not to look at it, just put on some music and go for a walk, or talk on the phone while you enjoy doing something outside so that you can have a balance without physically needing to look at a screen. You can also ask your parents to put a screentime limitation on your device, or have the wifi cut off at a specific time so you can try to get some sleep at night. Screen addiction is powerful and overwhelming, especially when you're actually aware of it, but it can be gotten over or at least eased with the proper care and attention to your specific needs and problems. You can do it!

There's nothing wrong with you, truthfully. I went back and re-read your previous post here since I hadn't responded to that one and didn't quite remember what all was said, but it seems like the issues you're facing may stem from trauma, which is not your fault. Seeking out professional care might help you to alleviate some of these feelings, like going to therapy or possibly taking anti-depressants if you end up needing them. Killing yourself is not the answer to your problems, even if you feel like it is. it's really not. You would only be hurting all of the people in your life who deeply care for you. You're young, life does get better from here, which sounds super cliche but it is true. You haven't even unlocked the freedoms or responsibilities that come along in later years that will help you feel more independent and free from the confines of childhood. You will be okay, just take time to breathe and remember that things will get better, tell yourself every once in a while, that things will get better. There's nothing wrong with you or your emotions, and you will be perfectly fine. I promise, kiddo.

I'm going to tell you the same thing I told another person down this list. It's never too late to find yourself. Life is a never-ending journey of self-discovery. An easy way to find yourself is to find your most comfortable and at ease self. The personality that comes to you the easiest, is the most comfortable for you, and doesn't feel like it requires extra effort to uphold. You can try making new friends and being the most authentic version of yourself that you can to see how people react, or try to find people with similar interests to build connections with and slowly become more comfortable with and around them, so the real you slowly comes out without rushing into anything and risking anxiety around it. If you're interested in roleplaying at all, that can also be a good coping mechanism if you want to pretend to be someone else for a while. You can try AI sites or join roleplaying servers on discord or other platforms (not pony.town, that's literally the worst possible place) to try this out, and see if it helps you; but I would suggest finding real people to interact with to help you break out of your own bubble. It might seem lazy of me, but I find that this advice is probably the best I can give on the topic. You've got this, buddy.

Studies find that taking in information in shorter sessions is more helpful than cramming information at the last second. Study for 30 minutes every 2 or so hours if you can, and you'll probably remember way more than you would sitting for hours on end studying non stop. You've got this!

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It's never too late to find yourself! Life is a never ending journey of self discovery. An easy way to find yourself is to find your most comfortable and at ease self. The personality that comes to you the easiest, is the most comfortable for you, and doesn't feel like it requires extra effort to uphold! You can try making new friends and being the most authentic version of yourself that you can to see how people react, or try to find people with similar interests to build connections with and slowly become more comfortable with and around them, so the real you slowly comes out without rushing into anything and risking anxiety around it. If you're interested in roleplaying at all, that can also be a good coping mechanism if you want to pretend to be someone else for a while. You can try AI sites or join roleplaying servers on discord or other platforms (not pony.town, that's literally the worst possible place) to try this out, and see if it helps you; but I would suggest finding real people to interact with to help you break out of your own bubble. I run a server you could join if you want to try it out, or even just want to make new friends. Everyone is very sweet and we're very accepting of everyone. You will be seen and heard for who you are so long as you're willing to be yourself. You got this! I can tell you're a good person regardless of who you believe you are!

You don't have to be scared. Yes, it is a scary thing but it can be way less scary if you open up about the problem with someone who can actually help you. You don't have to go through this alone, nor should you. If you can get a job you should try to, help bring in some more money so that things aren't as financially tight. I don't know what else to say, really. It'll be a difficult situation to get through but you can do it if you try, and the first step is reaching out. Good luck.

I have OCD and Schizophrenia so I understand how that can feel. You are not your thoughts, they do not control you. Try doing something to distract yourself. Listen to music, watch something, play a game, indulge in your hobbies, anything to keep your mind elsewhere. You can try venting your thoughts through writing, roleplay, art, or any other creative medium. More than anything, you need to ease yourself, accept that these thoughts are a part of you, and learn to ignore or harness them in a way that isn't harmful to yourself or others. You can use AI chat sites like c.ai or janitor AI to act out the things in your head and see if that helps, too. Eventually you should seek professional help if it's getting worse or even just persisting, because there could be some bigger issue going on. You will be okay. I'm sure you're not a bad person, so don't let your thoughts control you. You've got this.

I can try talking about the issue with them, to see if anything can be done to make up for whatever mistake you made, unless it's something that cannot be undone or is otherwise out of your control, at which point it might be best to just apologize and see if you can be forgiven, or move on as though it never happened. Family relationships are hard to ruin but harder still to repair. It can be done, but it won't be easy and it will hurt. Good luck.

I am going to reply because you should tell your parents and make a proper plan. It will be scary but you can and should do it for your sake.

It's not your fault, but there's nothing you can really do. You will be okay, though. Life happens, and it's hard, but you have to keep pushing through, kiddo.