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December 6, 2024 at 5:53:05 PM
What's your coping mechanism?:
watching vids, drawing, etc
Who are your trusted people?:
twin bro and friends
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
don't care
(( I have autism btw ))
I'm feeling ignored, I did $H for a while then I stopped
Idk what to say now.
Replied on: December 7, 2024 at 12:47:18 AM
I'm glad you stopped self harming, that's a difficult thing to do and I'm proud of you. If you're feeling ignored you should try to let people know that and make more friends to help combat that feeling if possible, or find things to do to distract yourself when people can't give you the attention you need at that moment.
You're doing good, don't let this get you down.
Past memories.
December 6, 2024 at 5:11:22 AM
What's your favorite song for when you're upset?:
Arctic monkeys
What's your coping mechanism?:
no idea, humor?
Who are your trusted people?:
...
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
/nf
I feel like my issues are not that bad. Ive been taught to repress anything if its not important enough. Im not sure at all on how to speak about my issues but yet here we are! I was s/a'ed by multiple partners when i was in middle school. It was passed on as a joke then but now it affects me. (Im in 10th now). I have a hard time trusting people, and that they will use me, or that i will get tricked in some way. [ * Autistic noises * /HVJ ]
I lash out. At friends.. family mostly. Im suspecting i have BPD (Or QBPD)
My parents dont belive in mental illnesses unless its something that affects the person a lot.
Im to clingy. Like the second i get shown affection, i WILL come back to that person. Even if they hurt me in some way. Its funny how it is, isnt it? A dog.
AROOFAROOFWOOFWOOFWMEOOWWOMEOWWARROFWOOFWOOF
Say that you hate me so i can let you go!! ""
thanxyouu! <3
-BD
Replied on: December 6, 2024 at 5:19:26 AM
That sounds to me more like C-PTSD than BPD but there could be other things there that I'm missing.
Anyways, your feelings and problems are valid regardless of the severity of them, and anyone who invalidates you or makes you suppress those feelings just because it's inconvenient for them are not people worth being around.
You should tell someone about your S/A if you haven't already, because that's a very serious issue that can and will get worse going down the line if it's not tended to properly; I highly recommend a therapist or other counseling if you can afford it, and if your parents say no, call CPS.
You should work on your attachment issues to avoid getting hurt in the future. A good way to start this is by repeatedly reminding yourself about how those people hurt you, how that betrayal made you feel, and just otherwise negatively associate things with them to avoid the urge to let them back into your life, because they likely wont change, and any significant changes that happen aren't going to happen quickly.
Once you've distanced yourself from your attachment issues you can find less negative ways of dealing with abandonment so that you don't go around hating people forever, because that's not constructive.
Good luck, I hope you can find some peace in your life soon.
anon (X)
December 5, 2024 at 2:19:12 PM
What's your favorite song for when you're upset?:
i like vocaloid!!!
What's your coping mechanism?:
try to face the problem :))
Who are your trusted people?:
classmates and my dad
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
sure :))
i feel annoying and suicidal and i feel everyone will fucking hate me like anyone else
i feel like people will come back just to make my life worse
i might make a vent again 
- X
Replied on: December 5, 2024 at 4:24:19 PM
If you're feeling suicidal, you should tell a trusted adult and see about getting help. I highly doubt anyone who's worth your time hates you, and anyone who's already left your life isn't worth worrying about because they aren't worth your time or energy if they've already proven they don't care about it.
anon
December 5, 2024 at 2:08:47 PM
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idrc
my love handles are like giant large tires around my waist and its like. idk if i should appreciate them or not because of how romanticized love handles r on tiktok.
Replied on: December 5, 2024 at 4:29:53 PM
Yet another reason why I don't use TikTok or Instagram. You should love yourself, but not because social media tells you to. Those apps are designed to make you feel self-conscious, regardless of your body type, because they promote businesses selling weight loss items and such.
If you don't like the way you look, that's okay. Make a change that you feel is necessary for yourself, but never change your physical appearance for other people. It's your body and you should be happy in it regardless of what other people think of you or what's considered to be "attractive" on social media.
O
December 5, 2024 at 4:03:45 AM
What's your coping mechanism?:
laying down(not really i end up just thinking of all the bad things when i do) or being with someone
Who are your trusted people?:
My mom
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
Yes
I’m so tired of feeling like I’m useless, I try my hardest to make friends and then I just end up losing them in the end I try so hard for others and i end up just getting replaced or they leave me over the smallest thing. When I get so fed up with them I end up breaking down on them and then they say i’m the bad guy and try to make me seem like i’m just overall a bad person for getting fed up with them treating me like trash. I lost 5 friends within a week and also my dog passed away not that long ago, i’m trying so hard to get better I’ve been trying since the start of this year but everything just keeps getting worse and worse.
Replied on: December 5, 2024 at 4:29:41 AM
You're not useless, and you're doing your best. It's not your fault that people don't appreciate you for who you are, so don't put yourself down for their ignorance. Anyone who's willing and able to treat someone like trash then turn around and call them their friend, isn't someone you want to be friends with in the first place.
I'm sorry about your dog dying, but it's in a better place now. You'll be okay, just keep reminding yourself of your self worth, because you're not a bad person, and as long as you keep trying, things will eventually get better. It might not be soon, but you will find greener pastures as long as you don't give up. I believe in you, and you should believe in yourself. Stay safe.
Anonymous
December 4, 2024 at 11:39:50 AM
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noo...
mmy typos r INSANE PKEASE IGNORE
Anonymous
December 4, 2024 at 11:38:43 AM
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if you want 2 because you just replied to my other one
Hey... its me the same person who sent the last vent.. BUT Like im havign another problem.. a serious one. so one time back in march i got jealous of my bestfriend hanging out with my other friend that hes also friend with. have no idea why actually. and so when he got inactive around april, i fell inlove with someone so easily. my bestfriend is truly the only one who makes me laugh a lot, and i dont know how 2 feel anymore. im confused with my own feelings, not sure if i actually love him or not. he doesnt know it, im glad though. and theres a huge difference in age gap so yeah thats bad. but ill tell him about how i felt when im 18.
hopwfully he doesnt find out about this 🤷♀️
and i hope you feel better soon 🙏
Replied on: December 4, 2024 at 7:17:52 PM
I think you're making the appropriate move by keeping it to yourself for now. I speak from experience because one of my internet kids, who is 14, confessed to me, who is almost 19, and it literally ruined our relationship. I understand that feelings are gonna do feeling things, but knowing when to keep it to yourself and when to express them is a huge thing that can make or break relationships. There's nothing wrong with you liking him so long as you don't push that onto him. So just keep doing what you're doing, buddy.
bocch
December 4, 2024 at 11:11:42 AM
What's your favorite song for when you're upset?:
uhh thefatrat no no no piano and strings 😭
What's your coping mechanism?:
NO idea
Who are your trusted people?:
scandal
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
yes PLEASE
dude the worse thing ever just happened to me like seriouslu. my google account got hacked, and i cant even recover it. the freaking fartface hacker added 2-step verification, recovery email, phone number, etc. they hacked it ALL for my moba game's account. NOT HAPPY ABOUT THAT. THEY DOJT EVEN PLAY ON MY ACCOUNT? THE MONEY IVE SPENT. i cant even get help. that account is so important to me you know funny thing i thought i was also gonna lose my pt, roblox, tiktok, discord etc account all togethee because it was my hacked email that was connected but at least i got to change the email on those (except discord, password was changed but can still get in because of my passkey). but yeah seriousky i need that account back its so important. 8 YEARS AND IT JUST GOT HACKED AROUND NOVEMBER 22. i wanted to jump ever since dude tjat account was my whole life its so important NOT 2 MENTION THE DUDE TRIED USING MY CARD??? HAD TO GET IT CANCELLED i am genuinely losing it pray for me i thought this montj was gonna be great but no its my ultimate worse diwnfall
Replied on: December 4, 2024 at 11:20:13 AM
I know how you feel, my discord account was hacked back in July and I lost some money bc of it, but discord does have a report system you can use to explain what happened and they should be able to get your account back to you within a few days if you submit a ticket with them.
I feel like the best thing you can do is just to take a step back and calm yourself down. If it's been 10 days and you're still this stressed out about it, that'll be the first thing you want to do. Losing your accounts does suck and unfortunately there isn't much that can be done about it, but it's not the end of the world. There are worse things that could have happened, and this really isn't worth getting overly worked up about.
Look into submitting reports to the platforms you can't recover to see if there's anything they can do such as deactivating the accounts or issuing refunds if possible.
Anonymous
December 4, 2024 at 10:27:08 AM
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if you want to
im just so tired of not being stable enough to make friends or talk to people or just stay in a server longer than like, 3 days. its not like i can stop it but i do want to at least make a friend.
i know i fucked up with my actions in the past and present and it backfired me. i never really meant to hurt anyone or make "uncomfortable" as they say. i really wish i could have normal emotions and be like an average human being.
i just wanna be normal.
Replied on: December 4, 2024 at 10:34:51 AM
I know exactly how you feel, buddy 🫂
Grass Frog
December 3, 2024 at 12:40:56 AM
What's your favorite song for when you're upset?:
none yet, but usually somethings that match my feelings, like nightshift or mitski's drunk walk home or dazey and the scout's maggot.
What's your coping mechanism?:
none I could do right now, specifically talking with others or just quality time
Who are your trusted people?:
pals.
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
yeah
grass frog again or whatever i feel a bit too lazy to fully blergh it out but im tooa fraid to leave this group.i thought i'd bene able to amp myselfup enough but i wasn't feeling it. my keyboard also broke and now i have to deal with the letters sticking together and it sucks and i also just am so busy all of the fucking time.it geninuely sucks.
It feels like nothing I do is ever good enough, and all my life is is boring work. I hate it. I want more. I can't have more, though. I have to wait. I don't have a car. I can't drive. And I have no real-life friends. I feel isolated. It's so frustrating to be alone. especially because I had to embarrass myself slowly explaining to an online friend I had no IRL friends at school. 
I'm jealous, and I feel dumb and isolated, like everything is my fault that I don't have friends. Maybe one day I'll have real pals, but right now it's frustrating.
Replied on: December 4, 2024 at 5:54:27 AM
It's pretty normal to crave real-life connections and such, and when we don't have those connections it can be immensely stressful and yes, lonely. However, you shouldn't beat yourself up over it. There are always people out there willing to make new friends if you go out to look for them. Try actively reaching out to others, see what things your classmates or coworkers are into, or find places to go out and make friends, like community events, parks, etc. Join clubs at school if you have the time to try new things and meet new people that you typically wouldn't talk to.
You're not dumb and it's not your fault, you just have to take that step to socialize and take a chance at making new friends even if you're nervous, because the only way to truly fail, is to never try in the first place.
I believe in you!
N/A
December 2, 2024 at 1:48:43 PM
What's your favorite song for when you're upset?:
N/A
What's your coping mechanism?:
N/A
Who are your trusted people?:
My boyfriend and my friends
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
Only if you agree in a strong manner. If not, or to say my feelings are wrong, do not.
I am so sick and tired of the normalization of alcohol. Alcohol kills, it’s a poison and I wish for it to be banned in my country. I am so done with this. My trauma is so bad that I will have panic attacks just at pictures of a bottle. Some people find it funny. It’s not. People don’t understand what alcohol is. They don’t learn before they act. This needs to stop being normalized.
Replied on: December 2, 2024 at 8:59:48 PM
I agree that alcohol needs to be seriously regulated because it's a depressant, and causes people to do dumb stuff while on it. You should seek out a professional to recover from the trauma you're experiencing because it sounds like it's pretty bad. Alcohol will never go away because it's a massive contributor to the economy, and that was already tried and didn't work out. It's one of those unfortunate things that wont change despite needing to, so the best you can do for yourself is try to get help for your trauma so it doesn't eat you alive.
You'll be fine.
Anonymous
December 2, 2024 at 8:47:32 AM
Who are your trusted people?:
My brother
Would you like me to reply to your entry?:
Sure
I just spent the past few minutes rapidly searching the internet about what a brain aneurysm feels like because I was worried I would (or already am going to) experience one because I have been holding in my sneezes. (Last time I sneezed I got a nosebleed) I almost convinced myself that I was about to have one! I love having hypochondria /s
Replied on: December 2, 2024 at 8:51:38 AM
There's not much I can say about this. You're fine, and you'll be fine. A nosebleed isn't going to kill you and are fairly uncommon, so please don't hold in your sneezes; they're happening for a reason. Your body will tell you when it's sick; trust yourself.
The Owner of this page - Cyrus
December 2, 2024 at 8:27:14 AM
What's your favorite song for when you're upset?:
I have a few playlists for this
What's your coping mechanism?:
Roleplay, music, comfort youtubers
Who are your trusted people?:
n/a
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(continuing in reply bc the message was too long)
I get immensely stressed when people show interest in me, despite feeling a crippling loneliness all the time.
I'm surrounded by kind, sweet, and intelligent people, both online and off, but I never truly feel connected with them, and that can be intentional or not, depending on the person and the environment we inhabit together. However, I do crave human connection rather deeply. Am I more partial to come kinds of connection than others? Yes. I have a strong want for romantic connection, because without it, despite adoring myself and having other things to do such as work, hobbies, and hanging out with friends; I feel like there's a part of me missing.
Now back to my opening statement; I get immensely stressed when people show interest in me. This is painfully true, and something that I can't seem to get over, no matter how hard I try.
I make myself as approachable as possible to people, so that I can make more friends, and have conversations without scaring people away. However, I often find myself taken aback, or even disturbed when people take an interest in me for any reason really.
Now, I do have boundaries that drive some of my reactions. I don't like when people under or over certain ages interact with me due to being a newish adult (I will be 19 in January) and understanding that there are some lines delicately drawn that can be blurred if one is not careful. Just as well, I have certain beliefs, comforts, and discomforts that when people raise even one red flag against, I tend to shy away from them or become outright hostile if my personal space is encroached upon. I often think of myself as selfish for being so particular, and need to constantly remind myself that I have these boundaries for a reason.
When people approach me looking for friendship, my immediate thoughts are all the bad things that could happen. When we start to talk and get closer, they shift to all the ways I could possibly ruin things, or how it could go wrong. Then, right when I get past all that anxiety and start to truly get close with someone, we either stop talking, or one of us catches feelings, which always pushes me away.
I am terrified of my own feelings. I have OCD, possibly schizophrenia, am hypersexual, and severely depressed, anxious, and traumatized. All around just not a very mentally sound person. But in particular, my own romantic inclinations terrify me. I was exposed to violent content pretty much out of the womb, was watching porn by age 6, and being sexually active online and irl by the age of 10. The lines between intimacy and casual affection have been blurred for over a decade, and following my integration into more horror-themed communities online, the line between intimacy and violence began to blur as well.
Replied on: December 2, 2024 at 8:28:00 AM
(this is a continuation)
I normalized a lot of horrible things between the ages of 12-16, and was told by the adults online that I surrounded myself with and looked up to that those things were fine, thus saw nothing wrong with it. Abuse was love, violence was erotic, and things that should have been kept far from one another were laid together in a messy heap of tangled wires that I couldn't make heads or tails of.
I continue to experience love with an underlying violence. I am immensely obsessive, possessive, clingy, needy, etc. etc. Cannibalism is engrained in my thought process, a part of how I love, and a driving factor in my affections. My abandonment issues have led me to traumatize past partners outright, from things like threatening to kill myself if they leave to doxxing my most recent ex-partner, whom I still adore and ache for deeply, as he truly was the first person to love me as an equal, and not abuse me on purpose, or use me for some ulterior motive. He forgave me, but I still hate myself for it regardless, because I acted out of anger and fear rather than using my head and thinking it over first, and reminding myself that doxxing him wouldn't make him come back to me.
I am not a good person. I have not been a good person a single day of my life. I came out wrong, grew up wrong, was broken over and over, and every time, I was put back together wrong. 2023-2024 have been the two best years for me, but I've still done things no right-minded or even decent-minded person would do, or even think of doing. I'm not a victim of anything but myself, because everything bad that's ever happened to me was in some way my fault or caused by something I did. And I have to live with that.
So yes. I am absolutely petrified when people approach me looking for any kind of relationship. Be it platonic, romantic, or anything else. Not because I'm scared of their intentions, or what they might do, but because I don't know what I might do, or let them do, to myself or to themselves.
Despite this, I am creating a discord server as an extension of this page where people can meet others like themselves and seek support from more people because I feel as though I am not doing enough. I never feel like I'm doing enough. I am not enough, and I never will be.
Anonymous
December 2, 2024 at 7:10:12 AM
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if you want?
ummmm why do only adults want to be friends with me I'm 16 lol... 
helkp
bella part 2
December 2, 2024 at 3:49:18 AM
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just replying cause im a little dumb
bulimia and anorexia have been the main struggles. ocd has definitely given me a bad relationship with food as well in some ways. my bad relationship with food comes from fear of what im eating (raw food, contaminated food, poisoned, infested, etc) and the fear of feeling too full or feeling too big (?) its hard for even me to describe, im still struggling to grasp the real source of the disorder
as for the lapse itself, it could be so many things at this point sobbb. im constantly stressed with my health and getting a job and the 24/7 doctors appointments. i could probably narrow it down to a couple things that would have directly caused what happened but thinking about it just makes me feel uneasy again.
no need to reply to this btw i guess im sort of rambling at this point Haaalp. but i do really appreciate your response. any advice is always appreciated : ) take care of yourself too, have a wonderful day/night thank you for everything
Replied on: December 2, 2024 at 3:52:35 AM
Ah yeah, understandable. I have OCD so I understand that better.
I really hope that life settles for you and that this issue sorts itself out soon.
- X
I'm jealous, and I feel dumb and isolated, like everything is my fault that I don't have friends. Maybe one day I'll have real pals, but right now it's frustrating.
helkp